Connecting

Connecting is a way of relation towards something, but when you really think about it, it's harder said then done. We say that we are  being honest and really reaching out but think to yourself.. are you really putting all of you out there for the world to see, for the world to judge and for the world to beat down. I think most of us if not all aren't putting ourselves out there 100%, i think most people including me, can't take the uncertainty. Time after time we are too scared to say how we really feel or let someone in, and thats what we are told to do with this book. we are suppose to open up to our class mates and friends and relate to them through the book and even the world. Taking it even smaller relating to yourself, finding your way and truly feeling like you have found the best meaning to the book.

At first and still even know this is a really hard thing for me to do, like i don't want to just go around posting all my thoughts and feeling around the internet, but i think back and the only reason i don't to, don't want to put myself out there is because of what people would say, imaging all the hurtful comments and helpless thoughts, i don't want to be the main attraction when people blog, but then i think again and think why should it matter how everyone thinks i am, think what you want because you going to weather or not you have my approval or not. So yes, i am kinda out there and crazy but thats okay, now i see it doesn't matter, and thats were im connecting more with people and Holden. Everyone wants to say that they don't care what people think and they want to mean it, and now you can know that im trying to mean it, im gunna do the best i can to mean it, and Holden should too, he needs to learn this process and now everyone who reads this will have in there head.